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Well period arrived this morning so I think it's over for this month again!  At least I didn't have a positive this month so maybe it just didn't happen.  The symptoms I've had have been misleading though!  I'd be more upset if we'd have had something there to lose.  :(

Back to trying again now.  At least I'll not be feeling sick or having stomach cramps for a few weeks and I can have a drink tonight to drown my sorrows!

Just had someone fail their driving test so that wasnt' the best start to the day either.  We both got up super early for nothing! 

After finding out we were pregnant last month and then within 2 days the baby had gone we decided that we were going to pull out all the stops as at least now we know it is possible.  So this month I monitored ovulation and used preseed to give the little fellas a fighting chance.  I've avoided strenuous activity and rested whenever I've felt tired.  I've cut down on caffiene (not much of a coffee drinker but I do drink coca cola a lot so I've reduced that).

So anyway now I am 12 days past ovulation (12dpo) and have quite bad abdominal cramps (had them for about a week) itchy nipples, headaches, backache and I'm incredibly tired.  I've done a few tests including the First Response Early one but all have been negative.  With the last 2 times I've seen BFP's it's been 14/15 dpo so I'm still hopeful.  I just wish I knew!  It's difficult to think of anything else.  I really do 'feel' pregnant although I don't know whether that counts! :p

So we'll just have to see what happens I suppose.  Baby dust to all TTC.

Well not pregnant anymore.  This seems to be all I ever write on this thing. 

Period came 2 days early and hasn't stopped since.  Getting fed up with this.  Why is it so easy for some and so difficult for others?  IT's too sad - can't get excited about anything as it gets taken away!  Really wanted this to stick!

Well sorry for the mini rant - I'll be ok in a while and then its back to trying again. 

Rach x

Yesterday I did a home pregnancy test and it was positive! Here is a photo for you to see.

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I know it is faint but you can definitely see it!  I did another test this morning and yes another faint line!  Wooooooh

Will do a digital one in a few days time as I hear they need a higher level of HcG. 

I really hope this one sticks!  If so we'll have a baby on or around 31st January 2009!

Rach xx

Well sadly I'm not pregnant anymore.

After fading lines on subsequent pregnancy tests my period finally arrived 10 days late, the doctor said that it was likely that the baby stopped developing shortly after implantation and has been reabsorbed. I was very upset but at least I know now that it's possible and that I'm ovulating etc.  Glad I didn't tell everyone as I couldn't bear reliving all the details everytime (guess that's why everyone waits the 12 weeks).

Well it's back to trying again - maybe next time it'll stick.

Well my period was due yesterday so I thought I'd do yet another pregnancy test and was ready for another negative BUT there were 2 lines!!! Admittedly the test line was considerably lighter than the control line but it was definitely there.  I woke John up and got him to look - he said he couldn't see anything (including me as he'd just opened his eyes!!) but once he was properly awake he definitely saw 2 lines.  The test line has faded a bit now but you can still see it.   So it looks like we're expecting!! Wow I am so excited. 

I just hope it's still there tomorrow! 

I had a lovely day yesterday with a very good friend.  I don't get to see her very often but when I do it's lovely.  We spent all day drinking tea and chating!  I love these catch ups. 

Thank you Faye.

Ok, so I'm getting fed up!  Trying for a baby at the moment and this month (2nd official month trying) we have tested for ovulation. 

I started testing a week ago and after putting my dates into various ovulation calculators I took an average of the 'fertile' days and made a conscious effort to 'get it on' throughout those days.  So from Sunday night we have been at it like rabbits!  What is usually amazing and fun has become a chore for both of us!  It's quite funny really as I'm initiating it (which is unusual) and instead of trying to prolong our 'passion' we've been trying to get it done ASAP so we can both go to sleep!!!  I feel terrible 'using' him in this way but if it gets us a baby then it's worth it! 

So now we've got to wait for 2 weeks to see if we have made a baby!  I'm excited but trying not to get stressed out like I did last month!  I know many other people have been trying for months and years but since we've wanted children for years and years but not been finacially secure enough it feels like we've been trying for much longer!

So wish me luck..........  

Well John had his day off today. I left him in bed this morning while I went to work with am list of things for him to do. 

When I got back he had not only completed the things on the relatively short list but had finished many other jobs left over.  I was very impressed!

So as a reward for him he decided that he fancied some icecream.  We didn't have any in the house and the nearest shop doesn't have any good flavours (according to John the icecream specialist).  So off we go to find some.....

Our next nearest shop didn't have what he had in mind but he bought 2 flavours anyway -  but he did see a sticky toffee pudding he wanted but you can't have fruit / chocolate icecream with cake so then we had to go to ASDA to get some vanilla!

Whilst at ASDA he decided that maybe cream would go better with the cake.... this was after he'd already put 2 more flavours in the trolley.  So when we got home I found that we had 4 tubs of icecream, a cake and some cream!

He's eating the sticky toffee pudding and cream now....... no doubt the icecream will get eaten at some point ..... probably in about 10 minutes time knowing my husband!

Today the weather is beautiful!  Such a difference from yesterday's torrential downpour. 

Had on 2 hour lesson this morning which was good.  Then I went to see my mum.  She's had the living room decorated and wanted me to look. 

Since getting home I have called the bank and ordered replacement cards as I have lost all my new business cards.  When I have to wait for the pin number to be sent I always put the card in a safe place and as usual - I lose them! 

Now I'm just defrosting some meat for tea in the hope that John will be home on time.  He has been working a lot recently.  Trying to build up some overtime for the extra money.  I am fine with him working as he enjoys it so much.  It's just annoying when we're trying for a baby and he doesn't get home til 2 am,  By that time I am usually asleep or on my way.  Then I have to be out in the morning for work and he stays in bed - by the time I'm back he's gone to work!  Roll on tomorrow when he has a day off!  he he

At least he finishes as 10 tonight so we can at least go to bed together at the same time.  That's a first this week!